A Story About Her..

She is CY. First year student in UTM but I couldn't remember what course is she taking. A great opportunity given to know her as we were spreading the "seed" 2 months ago in her kolej and she was one of them. She hasn't accept Christ even until now, but she is in my affinity group. 


2 weeks ago, when Fishy and I plan to have our "rice cooker cake baking" time with our affinity group members, it was a thunder raining Saturday and I had just donated 450ml blood in that afternoon. Feel so weak and sleepy and because of the rain, CY asked Fishy whether can we just cancel the affinity group time. I was happy for very few seconds as I thought, "thank God, if the affinity group postponed, then I can just continue to sleep!" By the way, that's just a flash of thought and after that, Fishy get me to deal with CY. 


Thank God we had a great affinity group time that day. I thanked God that He didn't listen to my thought! Although that day we just have CY only as the rest of the group members suddenly said cannot make it, but the time spent was really meaningful. We had a intellectual and deep talk in the process of making and baking the cake and had the opportunity to know CY more.


And few days ago, I saw a weird FB status posted by CY, and after that I came to know she had some conflict with her roommate. I told her I will pray for her and I know here comes the time for me to help her in other way. Dated her for lunch together with Sakura this afternoon and she told us the problem arise between herself and the roommate.


We did give her some suggestions and told her we will continue to pray for her. And I promise her I will help her to do the DISC personal assessment so that she can know herself more and to know her roommate more. We went to buy some vege and when I pick her to cook together after I am off from work, she told me that her roommate started to talk to her! She felt surprise and overjoyed as her roommate didn't talk to her for days already. 


We cooked together for our dinner and she had her DISC personal assessment. She came to know more about herself as well as her roommate. Anyway, I got a strong feeling that she will becomes a Christian very soon as she experienced that God is exist and God opened the door for her.


Let's pray for her so that she will accept the living God, Jesus Christ as her personal Lord and Saviour soon! Cheers! :)

When You Believe

God doesn't promise that for those who believes in Him, can have everything done smoothly without any obstacles and challenges but God promised that He will be with us in whatever we do and wherever we go.


God gave me a different road in my postgraduate life. First, I experienced the moment to get the PhD offer but pulled back by the University because of the pointer is not up to the newly adjusted requirement. But end up I got the offer at last still.


Second, I experienced the "rejection" from MyBrain15 scholarship just because my field of study is not under their consideration. And I am now still waiting for Zamalah UTM's scholarship to be processed yet I have to clear the debts (my tuition fee actually).. Don't have much saving now but I can save up again slowly. 


I am sure God is still taking care of me up there and I believe that He is preparing something better for me! God's grace is still enough because I didn't lose weight at all but GAIN WEIGHT!! hahaha.. 


Gotta be strong physically and mentally! It's not easy but by the grace of God, I can handle it well! Cheers!

a little story of a little girl..

Hi guys, am back after M.I.A. for sooooooo long! (: Anyway, today is a special day as my block got no water supply since last night?! No!! I mean that's just an interlude but it doesn't drive me to write this post anyhow :D

Hmm yeah, so today is actually a little girl's birthday. I know the girl but just...... not so familiar with her but.. she is the MAIN ROLE of the post today! *deng deng deng deng*

To me, music is life and music is like oxygen.. But.. Have you ever ask yourself what really M.U.S.I.C. meant to you? I bet you don't.. and so am I.. Although there were a lot of obstacles when I want to learn new instruments.. A lot of tears and sacrifices, but I don't think I am so passionate if compare to the little girl.. I don't feel myself is VERY fortunate and blessed until I know her story..

A little girl who likes piano a lot and really wish to have one.. But her mommy said it won't be useful to the little girl.. The father felt pity to his little daughter as the father knows the impact of music can change the little girl's life.. And the father really wanted to fulfil his daughter's wish! And you know what.. The father told the little girl saying, daddy will get a keyboard and a teacher for you but she said, it's ok daddy, I will learn it by watching to Youtube's videos! Oh boy! My heart was aching when I heard the story. Her passionate is much stronger than mine who explore music since 5 years old!! I feel guilty as I think I should cherish the opportunities that God given to me in this field..

So yeah.. That's the little story of the little girl.. I really wish I could help the little to fulfil her dream also as.. Blessed is the one who give than receive isn't it? And by sharing my knowledge in music, can build a little girl to a better person, why not?! :D Last but not least, I would like to wish the little girl to have a blessed birthday and I pray that God will listen to her little prayer and grant her what she wants in her life! Happy birthday girl!

Joy To The World!

Things happened on me seems D.R.A.M.A.T.I.C.!!

Can't believe my Faculty just called me and asking me to go for an interview this Friday, 9am. At least I am given a chance to present my idea before they pull back the offer..

Dr Roziana said they won't pull back but they just wanna follow the procedure and there was some miscommunication arise.. So yeah, this Friday.. will be the day!

Feel so happy and I thank God that He is with me.. He never leave me and never forsake me!

*believe in LOVE, you will see miracle!* Indeed! I feel like wanna sing *I FEEL GOOD* out loud and also JOY TO THE WORLD!!!

Thank you so much for all of you who prayed for me and all the encouragement! Blessed to have you all in life. I won't forget the kindness and I promise that I will "pass it on" this good deeds whenever possible!!

Don't worry. You are not in dream! Can't believe but it's true!

ARGH!!!!!!!! Finally can pack up happily to go UTHM for performance!!!

Lastly, I would like to share with you guys that, GOD WORKS IN WAY THAT EXTRAORDINARY!!! He is the real God.. Nothing can be that real other than HIM!!!

Believe In Love, You Will See Miracles (相信有爱就有奇迹)

It has been a long process from the day I apply the course until the day I got the offer letter. Worries and uncertainties accompanied but XT kept reminding me to trust that God will lead. I was overjoyed when I got the offer letter and I was really relieved at the moment..

I was in "excited mode" and really looking forward for the registration day until this morning I got a call from School of Graduate Studies, UTM saying they have to pull back the offer as my own faculty's Deputy Dean asked them to do so due to my CGPA was not meet the requirement.. (they just adjust the entry CGPA from 3.5 to 3.7 in fact)

IT'S REALLY A BIG JOKE FOR ME!!!

What a sudden pull back! Later that, my office - the studio was in "mourning" mode.. Syawal keep quiet as he saw the silly girl's tears keep dropping! aiyoyo! I was like helpless at that time.. I cried for few hours until the tears dried by itself..

Contacted my dearest supervisor and she suggest me to write in personally to the Dean to appeal.. Nothing much I can do so I just write an appeal letter.. Pray that I am able to see the Dean once he back from raya's holiday..

A big "faith" lesson for me this time! I choose to trust Him! Even in this circumstance. I want to praise Him as He grant me this opportunity to experience His mighty power! Although my eyes is still very wet now, but my heart had cried out that, I BELIEVE IN YOU, JESUS! and I will still love YOU!

I do not know what will happen next but oh Lord, Have Your Way In ME!!!

I believe in the love of Jesus Christ, and I believe I will see M.I.R.A.C.L.E.! Go Jess Go!

Battery K.O.N.G.

Battery flat after running here and there since morning..

The upcoming's life will be 100x challenging..

I do not know how strong am I..

But I believe that God will open way for me along the way..

That's my belief..

And I should believe!

I am thankful on the things that happened to me..

No regrets and no complaint..

Thank you, Lord for your tender, loving and care..

emo again..

This is the place where I feel comfortable to talk..

A space that I can breathe freely..

A place that at least I am allowed to be emo just for a while..

I am a rational person..

But somehow I will still be emotional..

I know that's the sign of immature..

But.. I am a normal person still..

With much of expectation and hopes..

I am going to live like what people expects and hopes..

Not sure whether is it correct but the adult always said..

IT'S FOR YOUR OWN GOOD..

Since my own decisions are always wrong..

I am going to listen to you guys..

See what will happen next..

Feel exhausted with people, matter and things around me!

Argh!!! I am sooooo emo!!!

good or bad?

is it a good thing or a bad thing.?

to clarified..

to explained..

plan not to hurt..?

but end up the hurt is so deep..

fair or unfair..

it's out of the issue..

pretending nothing happen..

pretending happy..

pretending and deceiving own self and others..

again, is it a good thing or a bad thing..?

Oh Lord,

Cast away my emo...

crying heart..

I AM TENSED UP!

Oh Lord.. Open way for me please..

F.I.N.A.L.L.Y.

Finally I have some motivation to start my research proposal today and today is Ah Lem's birthday so me and Monica plan to give her a S.U.R.P.R.I.S.E.! hoho..

I asked to join me for lunch as I will be cooking and she is so |C|U|T|E|, she passes me her rice (left just a little bit) and 1 biji of egg and ask me to finish it as she will be back to her hometown after her exam..

So our plan is to buy a small (one piece) cake for her.. and have luncheon meat (not sure whether she misses pork or not), jiu cai fried egg and seaweed soup as lunch.. Oh ya! and my pandan rice..

Hope everything will be tasty! and really hope that we can really bless her in this special day! hoho.. Can't wait!

Wish you have a B.L.E.S.S.E.D. B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y, Ah Lem! Stay P.R.E.T.T.Y.!